Sunday, October 29
> Last!
I know i said i wanna be missing in action and would not be coming back to this space. After this post, i would really go. There's no reason for me to stay anymore.
I dont understand why i cry myself to sleep everynight, it just comes naturally like a prayer before you sleep kinda thing. And then i wake up the next morning with puffy eyes and a bleeding heart, only to realise that ive been fooled all over again.
Ive got enough of all the pretence and excuses you've came up with all this while. Can someone tell me why am i still hiding in my hollow cell, driving myself to desperation and believing what i hear when you've happily moved on, forgetting my existence.
So why am i so pissed? Its because of you, baby.
I know i said i wanna be missing in action and would not be coming back to this space. After this post, i would really go. There's no reason for me to stay anymore.
I dont understand why i cry myself to sleep everynight, it just comes naturally like a prayer before you sleep kinda thing. And then i wake up the next morning with puffy eyes and a bleeding heart, only to realise that ive been fooled all over again.
Ive got enough of all the pretence and excuses you've came up with all this while. Can someone tell me why am i still hiding in my hollow cell, driving myself to desperation and believing what i hear when you've happily moved on, forgetting my existence.
So why am i so pissed? Its because of you, baby.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 3:10:00 pm
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Tuesday, October 24
> Byebye!
After today, i dont think you'll see Amber online or updating this space. Cos ive decided to play MIA.
I had this sudden urge to confine myself in my small little blue room with the remaining 10 Death Note comics and shut myself up from the many complications of the humane world.
If you miss me, you'll find me, easily.
After today, i dont think you'll see Amber online or updating this space. Cos ive decided to play MIA.
I had this sudden urge to confine myself in my small little blue room with the remaining 10 Death Note comics and shut myself up from the many complications of the humane world.
If you miss me, you'll find me, easily.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 6:16:00 pm
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Sunday, October 22
> updates.
I havent gotten the pictures with da babes at MOS on Denise's birthday, but here are some that were taken with my mobile.
All the girls that attended.
Some day last week, my colleagues and i decided to make sushi for lunch. It was a very much bonding session i must say. We all had lots of fun, and i was in charged of the rice. So i got up at llike 6am to cook 5 cups of rice. Oh man, so sleep deprived! Next month, we're gonna do popiah!
The ingredients.
Put em all together and roll it up!
Death Note with Shalyn was great. Not just the movie was fantabulous, the companion was awesome too. I cant wait for the next episode. Maybe im gonna go read the manga. I love the movie! You must all go watch it too!
My love!
Just yesterday, Shalyn and i were discussing what would happen if one day we both realise that after all these while, we're actually very much deeply in love with each other and realised that we both were actually lesbians and decided to be together. HAHA!
After the movie last night, i met up with Raymond and friends for supper at Simpang. I ate so much and i got so sleepy. Must be the leftover effects of the booze on Friday. I fell asleep at the studio before Raymond woke me up and sent me home. And i slept all the way till 5pm today and im still feeling giddy and nauseaus.
Im still having dizzy spells. Oh gawd, how is it possible that i still get hangover after 2 days? Madness.
And i can sense the Monday Blues coming.
I havent gotten the pictures with da babes at MOS on Denise's birthday, but here are some that were taken with my mobile.
All the girls that attended.
Some day last week, my colleagues and i decided to make sushi for lunch. It was a very much bonding session i must say. We all had lots of fun, and i was in charged of the rice. So i got up at llike 6am to cook 5 cups of rice. Oh man, so sleep deprived! Next month, we're gonna do popiah!
The ingredients.
Put em all together and roll it up!
Death Note with Shalyn was great. Not just the movie was fantabulous, the companion was awesome too. I cant wait for the next episode. Maybe im gonna go read the manga. I love the movie! You must all go watch it too!
My love!
Just yesterday, Shalyn and i were discussing what would happen if one day we both realise that after all these while, we're actually very much deeply in love with each other and realised that we both were actually lesbians and decided to be together. HAHA!
After the movie last night, i met up with Raymond and friends for supper at Simpang. I ate so much and i got so sleepy. Must be the leftover effects of the booze on Friday. I fell asleep at the studio before Raymond woke me up and sent me home. And i slept all the way till 5pm today and im still feeling giddy and nauseaus.
Im still having dizzy spells. Oh gawd, how is it possible that i still get hangover after 2 days? Madness.
And i can sense the Monday Blues coming.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:54:00 pm
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Saturday, October 21
> Happy birthday Denise!
I got fucking wasted last night. I reached home last night and knocked out right after i stepped into the house, collapsed on the sofa in my clubbing wear and make up on till this morning at about 8am when i woke up suddenly with a splitting headache. And i got back to sleep again right after i wash up and all.
The main objective last night at MOS was to celebrate Denise's birthday with the usuals. Many many of us turned up but i didnt really like the music at Smoove and the crowd doesnt appeal to me at all. So after dancing for awhile, i went over to meet a friend, Mr G (lets not reveal who he is) and thats when i died in his hands.
I had like vodka lime, whatever pineapple, whatever drink (sorry i cant remember the name of it), flamin', 4 shots, cowboy, bourbon and i cant remember if there's anything else.
I was so freaking high last night, i couldnt even stand properly on my own. My eyes was shut most of the time as we danced. I cant walk straight without the help of Mr G holding me. Wah lau! This is the 2nd time i got so badly drunk in the club. So yah, the same things happened. But this time, i dont feel like the other. Okay whatever, only i'll understand what im trying to say. Haa.
Many many pictures. Till i receive them.
Meeting Shalyn for Death Note tonight. But im having a farking hangover right now i feel like just shutting myself up in the room alone. Overnight mahjong tonight, i think. Oh help, im so gonna be dead.
Laters all.
I got fucking wasted last night. I reached home last night and knocked out right after i stepped into the house, collapsed on the sofa in my clubbing wear and make up on till this morning at about 8am when i woke up suddenly with a splitting headache. And i got back to sleep again right after i wash up and all.
The main objective last night at MOS was to celebrate Denise's birthday with the usuals. Many many of us turned up but i didnt really like the music at Smoove and the crowd doesnt appeal to me at all. So after dancing for awhile, i went over to meet a friend, Mr G (lets not reveal who he is) and thats when i died in his hands.
I had like vodka lime, whatever pineapple, whatever drink (sorry i cant remember the name of it), flamin', 4 shots, cowboy, bourbon and i cant remember if there's anything else.
I was so freaking high last night, i couldnt even stand properly on my own. My eyes was shut most of the time as we danced. I cant walk straight without the help of Mr G holding me. Wah lau! This is the 2nd time i got so badly drunk in the club. So yah, the same things happened. But this time, i dont feel like the other. Okay whatever, only i'll understand what im trying to say. Haa.
Many many pictures. Till i receive them.
Meeting Shalyn for Death Note tonight. But im having a farking hangover right now i feel like just shutting myself up in the room alone. Overnight mahjong tonight, i think. Oh help, im so gonna be dead.
Laters all.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 4:12:00 pm
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Sunday, October 15
> fuck that feeling within me
Im feeling really terrible right now. I dont know how to explain how exactly im feeling. Its very perplexed, like a combination of insecurities and fears, together with agonising pain which i dont know where it came from, adding in constant images and suicidal thoughts. I dont even know why im feeling this way, but im feeling really terrible and i need to scream to break free. But yet im suppressing all my emotions within me, not wanting to let them out. The more i suppress and suffocate myself, the more i feel like breaking down.
I know there's always people around for me to depend on when i feel like falling, but i dont wanna rely on them anymore.
You might probably be thinking that im just speaking in incoherence. Though lost, but im still very sober.
I just wanna breathe again.
I still miss you with every passing day. But as each day passes, your images etched in my mind gets blur.
Im feeling really terrible right now. I dont know how to explain how exactly im feeling. Its very perplexed, like a combination of insecurities and fears, together with agonising pain which i dont know where it came from, adding in constant images and suicidal thoughts. I dont even know why im feeling this way, but im feeling really terrible and i need to scream to break free. But yet im suppressing all my emotions within me, not wanting to let them out. The more i suppress and suffocate myself, the more i feel like breaking down.
I know there's always people around for me to depend on when i feel like falling, but i dont wanna rely on them anymore.
You might probably be thinking that im just speaking in incoherence. Though lost, but im still very sober.
I just wanna breathe again.
I still miss you with every passing day. But as each day passes, your images etched in my mind gets blur.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 11:44:00 pm
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> pretty screwed up weekend
Yesterday was a pretty bad day. It felt more like Friday the 13th rather than Saturday the 14th.
So first, i was late for the movie Stay Alive in Cine because of the major jam. Lynn, Kevin and i missed the first 45 minutes of the movie and ended watching the last 45 minutes. I had anticipated so long for the launch of this movie and i only caught half of it. Damn disappointing, so imma go catch it again. One of these days.
Then, Lynn and her friends were going Lesbian Night at HardRockCafe and i didnt feel like going, so i was left stranded not knowing where to go and what to do. The worst thing of all is when Adrian had to book in to camp and Raymond couldnt get to book on because of outfield. So i felt like shit and my other friends were either all busy, had plans, or plain lazy to step outta house.
So, i met up with Kenny and Kev yet again over in Plaza Sing hoping to catch Death Note at 1am but there were no good seats so the plan was called off. The 3 of us were left stranded not knowing where to go again.
Decided to go over to Mind Cafe but it was so packed and freaking noisy. The other tables had like many people playing games together and we had 3 pathetic boring souls. So it was quite weird, and we left.
Ended up having supper at Mr Bean and then we just roamed around the streets of Orchard Road stoning from place to place until 2am and i just couldnt took it anymore i decided to go home.
What a Saturday.
Friday wasnt any much better. Met up with Denise, Bird and Edwin over in town for Rob-B-Hood at Lido. Its a must catch movie because its starring Louis Khoo *screams & faints* and the movie made me laugh so loudly and teared so badly. It was really touching. 5/5 stars man!!
So after that we wanted to have mahjong but everyone else were going fishing so, we parted and i was left stranded in town again. Ended up watching Kenny and Kev playing billiard at Katong and then back to my place for mahjong. And i lost my entire lunch money for next week. So, help! Im gonna survive on bread and biscuits again. =(
Met up with Denise and Celine for dinner at Marina Square after work on Tuesday and did lotsa catching up. It was great i must say.
Dinner at Spaggedies was such a steal because we had 1-for-1 main course as an UOB card holder. Damn worthed it!
Adrian came down just to meet me for lunch on Friday. So sweet! We dined at Cafe Cartel and i was freaking hungry so i ate a lot, like more than Adrian. Wah lau, im getting so fat!
We intended to go blading today but its so hazy and misty outside i bet the plan is gonna be called off. Another wasted weekend.
I need some new exciting and interesting places to go man. Singapore is boring me out totally. help!
Yesterday was a pretty bad day. It felt more like Friday the 13th rather than Saturday the 14th.
So first, i was late for the movie Stay Alive in Cine because of the major jam. Lynn, Kevin and i missed the first 45 minutes of the movie and ended watching the last 45 minutes. I had anticipated so long for the launch of this movie and i only caught half of it. Damn disappointing, so imma go catch it again. One of these days.
Then, Lynn and her friends were going Lesbian Night at HardRockCafe and i didnt feel like going, so i was left stranded not knowing where to go and what to do. The worst thing of all is when Adrian had to book in to camp and Raymond couldnt get to book on because of outfield. So i felt like shit and my other friends were either all busy, had plans, or plain lazy to step outta house.
So, i met up with Kenny and Kev yet again over in Plaza Sing hoping to catch Death Note at 1am but there were no good seats so the plan was called off. The 3 of us were left stranded not knowing where to go again.
Decided to go over to Mind Cafe but it was so packed and freaking noisy. The other tables had like many people playing games together and we had 3 pathetic boring souls. So it was quite weird, and we left.
Ended up having supper at Mr Bean and then we just roamed around the streets of Orchard Road stoning from place to place until 2am and i just couldnt took it anymore i decided to go home.
What a Saturday.
Friday wasnt any much better. Met up with Denise, Bird and Edwin over in town for Rob-B-Hood at Lido. Its a must catch movie because its starring Louis Khoo *screams & faints* and the movie made me laugh so loudly and teared so badly. It was really touching. 5/5 stars man!!
So after that we wanted to have mahjong but everyone else were going fishing so, we parted and i was left stranded in town again. Ended up watching Kenny and Kev playing billiard at Katong and then back to my place for mahjong. And i lost my entire lunch money for next week. So, help! Im gonna survive on bread and biscuits again. =(
Met up with Denise and Celine for dinner at Marina Square after work on Tuesday and did lotsa catching up. It was great i must say.
Dinner at Spaggedies was such a steal because we had 1-for-1 main course as an UOB card holder. Damn worthed it!
Adrian came down just to meet me for lunch on Friday. So sweet! We dined at Cafe Cartel and i was freaking hungry so i ate a lot, like more than Adrian. Wah lau, im getting so fat!
We intended to go blading today but its so hazy and misty outside i bet the plan is gonna be called off. Another wasted weekend.
I need some new exciting and interesting places to go man. Singapore is boring me out totally. help!
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:55:00 pm
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Saturday, October 14
> Reminiscing my past love
I used to be in love with this guy whom i always call him Mr Dino. We shared a fair share of beautiful memories, as well as really painful ones and angry ones. All my friends knew about him because he'll always be the topic of the day.
We've been through lots of ups and downs but ultimately we still didnt end up together. There was a period whereby everything went haywire, the period he got attached when after that he said he still had feelings and cared a lot about me. When i told him im losing him already and i wanna let go and give up, he was upset and i knew we both didnt bear to just end it all. But he had a girlfriend at that time, and i ended up being the third party, got myself stucked in a love triangle when actually it all started with only the two of us.
I especially miss the times we went pubbing and i got myself drunk puking all over, and the times when he came over to my place with the other people and we had our very own cooking session in the kitchen just the two of us and the times when he slept beside me throughout the entire night but left even before i could see him when i woke up the next morning.
I miss the times i always give him wake up calls in the morning by forgoing my sleep, the times i laid my head on his shoulder throughout the bus ride and he laid his head on mine. The times i stayed back late in school to watch his tournament and cheered for him although im all alone.
It had been a while and all this had turned to past, im just reminiscing them cos i dreamt of him last night and it dawned on me how much i love him. The hardship of forgetting him was worst then what im going through right now. So that's the only thing that kept me going and moving on with my life right now. If i could do it for Mr Dino, im sure i can do it this time too.
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More updates on how my week were spent tomorrow.
I used to be in love with this guy whom i always call him Mr Dino. We shared a fair share of beautiful memories, as well as really painful ones and angry ones. All my friends knew about him because he'll always be the topic of the day.
We've been through lots of ups and downs but ultimately we still didnt end up together. There was a period whereby everything went haywire, the period he got attached when after that he said he still had feelings and cared a lot about me. When i told him im losing him already and i wanna let go and give up, he was upset and i knew we both didnt bear to just end it all. But he had a girlfriend at that time, and i ended up being the third party, got myself stucked in a love triangle when actually it all started with only the two of us.
I especially miss the times we went pubbing and i got myself drunk puking all over, and the times when he came over to my place with the other people and we had our very own cooking session in the kitchen just the two of us and the times when he slept beside me throughout the entire night but left even before i could see him when i woke up the next morning.
I miss the times i always give him wake up calls in the morning by forgoing my sleep, the times i laid my head on his shoulder throughout the bus ride and he laid his head on mine. The times i stayed back late in school to watch his tournament and cheered for him although im all alone.
It had been a while and all this had turned to past, im just reminiscing them cos i dreamt of him last night and it dawned on me how much i love him. The hardship of forgetting him was worst then what im going through right now. So that's the only thing that kept me going and moving on with my life right now. If i could do it for Mr Dino, im sure i can do it this time too.
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More updates on how my week were spent tomorrow.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 3:46:00 pm
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Wednesday, October 11
> Job offered even before i graduate.
This morning as usual, i was having a puff at Coffee Bean while waiting for the minute hand of my watch to point South before i make my way up to the office and start another tiring day staring at the computer.
There were only 4 tables at the smoking area, of which all is occupied. This guy prolly in his late 50s was looking for a place to sit down and smoke but there wasnt any. So, i offered him a seat at my table since i was alone and i was gonna leave once the stick finishes.
He then sat down, and striked a conversation with me. It was just a friendly conversation because it would be very weird if the both of us were just to sit there and mind our own business. Upon knowing that im here on my attachment and that im going to graduate in about 6 months time, he offered me his namecard and told me to email him when ive gotten my diploma so that he could offer me a job position in his company.
I took the namecard, and it stated there his name and his post. You know, every morning im either still detached from reality or im still stoning most of the time. But when i saw his post as the General Manager, my eyes widened.
Then, he took the last puff and left before saying the last sentence "I'll see you around, and remember to drop me an email. My company welcomes you."
Duh i was shocked. So now you know whats the positive thing about being a smoker and the law of leaving only 10% of the outdoor seating area for smokers? Heh. Or should i say, i am in luck.
This morning as usual, i was having a puff at Coffee Bean while waiting for the minute hand of my watch to point South before i make my way up to the office and start another tiring day staring at the computer.
There were only 4 tables at the smoking area, of which all is occupied. This guy prolly in his late 50s was looking for a place to sit down and smoke but there wasnt any. So, i offered him a seat at my table since i was alone and i was gonna leave once the stick finishes.
He then sat down, and striked a conversation with me. It was just a friendly conversation because it would be very weird if the both of us were just to sit there and mind our own business. Upon knowing that im here on my attachment and that im going to graduate in about 6 months time, he offered me his namecard and told me to email him when ive gotten my diploma so that he could offer me a job position in his company.
I took the namecard, and it stated there his name and his post. You know, every morning im either still detached from reality or im still stoning most of the time. But when i saw his post as the General Manager, my eyes widened.
Then, he took the last puff and left before saying the last sentence "I'll see you around, and remember to drop me an email. My company welcomes you."
Duh i was shocked. So now you know whats the positive thing about being a smoker and the law of leaving only 10% of the outdoor seating area for smokers? Heh. Or should i say, i am in luck.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 7:12:00 pm
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Sunday, October 8
> Mid Autumn Festival celebration
Nothing feels better than celebrating this day with the people you love. I had 2 days of such, and i feel blessed, though i hope there was someone else around.
On Friday, i met up with Eunice after work and had dinner while waiting for the others to arrive. We were supposed to meet at 8.30 in East Coast but judging from past record, we knew no one would be there at 8.30. By the time everyone arrived, it was after 10pm.
Eunice and i at the void deck
We had our girly chats, updated each other about ourselves and our life, had a commotion because of some stuffs, everyone turned emo for awhile, lighted lanterns, played with sparkles and candles, had our lanterns on fire by accident, ate mooncakes and pigpig.
This picture is so funny. Tess and i were trying to roast the pigpig because it tasted disgusting.
People present (incl Tess, she was the photographer). Thanks girlies for making my life complete. Life would never be the same if we didnt know each other. I love you!!
In life, beautiful things never last long. Just like sparkles. And like what they said, its beautiful because they dont last long. You'll only realise the beauty of it after it dies off. And that's life.
So we girls parted in a rush at 1am. Kerson came down to look for me and we sat by the beach for really long chats all the way till 5am. He walked me home all the way and we parted at 6am. Feels great catching up with each other and talked about our problems.
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Then came Saturday. Had a family barbecue at Baywater with the companion of my bestest friends.
Shalyn
and Adrian
Adrian was such a dear, he drove all the way down from Pasir Ris to my place because my inactive sim card was stucked and couldnt come out. I was uncontactable. But before he arrived, i managed to remove it. Haa! So he came over to see some stuffs and then we made our way down to the barbecue after picking Shalyn up.
I love family barbecue because there's a hell lot of yummy food without me paying for anything. We had chicken wings, pork chops, you tiao, taiwan sausages, crab meat, hotdogs, fishballs, satay, otah, stingray, sotong, bacon, bee hoon, corn, sweet potato, yam and marshmellow.
After that, Raymond came over to pick me up from Katong and back to Katong to retrieve his stuffs and picked Yilin and off we went to Plaza Sing with the intention of catching World Trade Centre with their other friends. But Raymond felt sick soon after, so the both of us left at about 1am for home.
Gone were my weekends again. Im supposed to go blading with Adrian today but he wasnt free in the end. Gone were my weekly exercises. And this week, is the first week since attachment started which i did not spend my weekend playing mahjong. Now im craving for it! aahh.
Nothing feels better than celebrating this day with the people you love. I had 2 days of such, and i feel blessed, though i hope there was someone else around.
On Friday, i met up with Eunice after work and had dinner while waiting for the others to arrive. We were supposed to meet at 8.30 in East Coast but judging from past record, we knew no one would be there at 8.30. By the time everyone arrived, it was after 10pm.
Eunice and i at the void deck
We had our girly chats, updated each other about ourselves and our life, had a commotion because of some stuffs, everyone turned emo for awhile, lighted lanterns, played with sparkles and candles, had our lanterns on fire by accident, ate mooncakes and pigpig.
This picture is so funny. Tess and i were trying to roast the pigpig because it tasted disgusting.
People present (incl Tess, she was the photographer). Thanks girlies for making my life complete. Life would never be the same if we didnt know each other. I love you!!
In life, beautiful things never last long. Just like sparkles. And like what they said, its beautiful because they dont last long. You'll only realise the beauty of it after it dies off. And that's life.
So we girls parted in a rush at 1am. Kerson came down to look for me and we sat by the beach for really long chats all the way till 5am. He walked me home all the way and we parted at 6am. Feels great catching up with each other and talked about our problems.
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Then came Saturday. Had a family barbecue at Baywater with the companion of my bestest friends.
Shalyn
and Adrian
Adrian was such a dear, he drove all the way down from Pasir Ris to my place because my inactive sim card was stucked and couldnt come out. I was uncontactable. But before he arrived, i managed to remove it. Haa! So he came over to see some stuffs and then we made our way down to the barbecue after picking Shalyn up.
I love family barbecue because there's a hell lot of yummy food without me paying for anything. We had chicken wings, pork chops, you tiao, taiwan sausages, crab meat, hotdogs, fishballs, satay, otah, stingray, sotong, bacon, bee hoon, corn, sweet potato, yam and marshmellow.
After that, Raymond came over to pick me up from Katong and back to Katong to retrieve his stuffs and picked Yilin and off we went to Plaza Sing with the intention of catching World Trade Centre with their other friends. But Raymond felt sick soon after, so the both of us left at about 1am for home.
Gone were my weekends again. Im supposed to go blading with Adrian today but he wasnt free in the end. Gone were my weekly exercises. And this week, is the first week since attachment started which i did not spend my weekend playing mahjong. Now im craving for it! aahh.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 4:28:00 pm
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> Pre-enlistment gathering with the Sentosa gang!
Before i go on talking about Leroy's and Teddy's pre-enlistment gathering and hair cutting session, i am sooooooooooooooo freaking excited about this piece of news. Probably the best surprise i ever gotten thus far.
Though its not confirmed and finalised yet, but im definately looking forward to it and i sincerely hope my wish would come true.
Private Giam, or rather Kerson, our school grass and fellow mediacorp part time actor (muahhahahha), asked me if im interested to attend Wang Lee Hom's concert on the 21st of this month cos he may be able to get tickets. I WAS PRACTICALLY SCREAMING WHEN HE ASKED. I cried out loud "YES" a million times and was grinning from ear to ear.
If you didnt know, i love Lee Hom as much as i love Show. And i was so dying to go to his concert. Kerson said he cant confirm yet though, but the thought of it just makes me feel like flying. And usually for things like that, he would be able to get tickets from the front or centre seats. THAT'S WAY TOO COOL!!
I cant wait for him to deliver the confirmation, with a piece of good news. OMG!!!
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Okay, so now to Leroy's and Teddy's pre-enlistment gathering and hair cut session. On mid autumn festival, Oct 6th, ive so many friends who enlisted.
Have a great time at Tekong, my mates! Byebye hair to Leroy, Teddy, Weiquan, Huat Chin, Ron, Vincent and etcetc.
So on Thursday after work, I met up with the others at Leroy's place over in SengKang and had pizza for dinner, followed by Criss Angel as he perform his magic tricks and a few rounds of Vodka Apeach shots and finally, the hair cut.
Teddy before the nonsense begin.
Cutting hair in progress by a bunch of, unprofessional hairdresser!
Shaving it away.
Ta-dah! Mohawk for you, Teddy.
Leroy having his hair cut.
Damn ugly lah!!
Leroy and Teddy after the first round of hair cut.
I didnt stay till late because ive got work the next day, so i left before i could see them totally bald.
Dearest Denise and I.
Sweetie Celine and I.
Before i go on talking about Leroy's and Teddy's pre-enlistment gathering and hair cutting session, i am sooooooooooooooo freaking excited about this piece of news. Probably the best surprise i ever gotten thus far.
Though its not confirmed and finalised yet, but im definately looking forward to it and i sincerely hope my wish would come true.
Private Giam, or rather Kerson, our school grass and fellow mediacorp part time actor (muahhahahha), asked me if im interested to attend Wang Lee Hom's concert on the 21st of this month cos he may be able to get tickets. I WAS PRACTICALLY SCREAMING WHEN HE ASKED. I cried out loud "YES" a million times and was grinning from ear to ear.
If you didnt know, i love Lee Hom as much as i love Show. And i was so dying to go to his concert. Kerson said he cant confirm yet though, but the thought of it just makes me feel like flying. And usually for things like that, he would be able to get tickets from the front or centre seats. THAT'S WAY TOO COOL!!
I cant wait for him to deliver the confirmation, with a piece of good news. OMG!!!
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Okay, so now to Leroy's and Teddy's pre-enlistment gathering and hair cut session. On mid autumn festival, Oct 6th, ive so many friends who enlisted.
Have a great time at Tekong, my mates! Byebye hair to Leroy, Teddy, Weiquan, Huat Chin, Ron, Vincent and etcetc.
So on Thursday after work, I met up with the others at Leroy's place over in SengKang and had pizza for dinner, followed by Criss Angel as he perform his magic tricks and a few rounds of Vodka Apeach shots and finally, the hair cut.
Teddy before the nonsense begin.
Cutting hair in progress by a bunch of, unprofessional hairdresser!
Shaving it away.
Ta-dah! Mohawk for you, Teddy.
Leroy having his hair cut.
Damn ugly lah!!
Leroy and Teddy after the first round of hair cut.
I didnt stay till late because ive got work the next day, so i left before i could see them totally bald.
Dearest Denise and I.
Sweetie Celine and I.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 3:45:00 pm
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Wednesday, October 4
> Amusing things in life.
I received another surprise this morning as i was working. Or rather, a major shock.
Back in Secondary school, its so common to always be in a relationship and changing boyfriends were like nothing special. That was then.
So this morning, my ex messaged me outta blue asking for a patch. I was reading the message in a daze so i read "i know it had been a few years, and i really wanna catch up with you blahblahblah." I read patch, as catch and as i continue reading, he said "i really hope we could be in a relationship and this time i promise to treat you really well". (not exactly the exact words because ive deleted the message but its just along that line)
Feeling puzzled, i replied "... u mad ah"
Then he continued saying how badly he used to treat me last time and made me cry and broke up with me instead of clearing the problems and how he regretted it and wanna make it up to me and hoping i'll give him another chance.
And you know what? This relationship i had with him was like at least 4 years back and we havent been in close contact since he graduated. We did meet up recently like once or twice just to say hi and sit around. I dont even remember how long we lasted, neither do i remember the reason why we broke up. Not even remembering who was the one that initiated.
So i asked him "what makes you think that im still the same person you once knew?"
And he was still hoping he could get to know me all over again, while we're in a relationship.
My feeling at that point of time was, -.-
Its so weird what people do and say at times, so weird how emotions come and go.
Im not the kinda person who would have a change of heart once i decided to let go and put everything in my memories. Not even when the person finally realised or decided that he wanna be with me. Because baby, its too late.
And this time, he came back like 4 years later. What a joke.
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Anyhoo, it was my dearest 19th birthday yesterday. I wanted to bring her to this restaurant which i knew she had never been to and im sure she would love the food there just like how i love it when i first dine there. But, Shalyn's mom prepared steamboat, so i went over to her place and had steamboat with Mama Tong, Brother Tong and Shalyn Tong.
I was contemplating if i should buy a cake cos im not sure if Daryl had bought one. So i tried to get his number from Natalyn, our common friend. But his line was cut off so i went ahead to get the cake and rushed to her place right after work, only to realise Daryl did buy a cake. So Shalyn had 2 birthday cakes last night. Hehe.
And this was all my hardwork and our trails of friendship.
The front
and the back.
And of course, the contents were meant only for the eyes of the special one. So, no pictures!
Happy birthday once again my sweetheart. lovelove! <3
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I know this is so random but i just have to post it up.
Mr mushroom head over at my place that night while we had a session of mahjong.
HAHAHAHAHA.
I received another surprise this morning as i was working. Or rather, a major shock.
Back in Secondary school, its so common to always be in a relationship and changing boyfriends were like nothing special. That was then.
So this morning, my ex messaged me outta blue asking for a patch. I was reading the message in a daze so i read "i know it had been a few years, and i really wanna catch up with you blahblahblah." I read patch, as catch and as i continue reading, he said "i really hope we could be in a relationship and this time i promise to treat you really well". (not exactly the exact words because ive deleted the message but its just along that line)
Feeling puzzled, i replied "... u mad ah"
Then he continued saying how badly he used to treat me last time and made me cry and broke up with me instead of clearing the problems and how he regretted it and wanna make it up to me and hoping i'll give him another chance.
And you know what? This relationship i had with him was like at least 4 years back and we havent been in close contact since he graduated. We did meet up recently like once or twice just to say hi and sit around. I dont even remember how long we lasted, neither do i remember the reason why we broke up. Not even remembering who was the one that initiated.
So i asked him "what makes you think that im still the same person you once knew?"
And he was still hoping he could get to know me all over again, while we're in a relationship.
My feeling at that point of time was, -.-
Its so weird what people do and say at times, so weird how emotions come and go.
Im not the kinda person who would have a change of heart once i decided to let go and put everything in my memories. Not even when the person finally realised or decided that he wanna be with me. Because baby, its too late.
And this time, he came back like 4 years later. What a joke.
------------------------------------------------------------------
Anyhoo, it was my dearest 19th birthday yesterday. I wanted to bring her to this restaurant which i knew she had never been to and im sure she would love the food there just like how i love it when i first dine there. But, Shalyn's mom prepared steamboat, so i went over to her place and had steamboat with Mama Tong, Brother Tong and Shalyn Tong.
I was contemplating if i should buy a cake cos im not sure if Daryl had bought one. So i tried to get his number from Natalyn, our common friend. But his line was cut off so i went ahead to get the cake and rushed to her place right after work, only to realise Daryl did buy a cake. So Shalyn had 2 birthday cakes last night. Hehe.
And this was all my hardwork and our trails of friendship.
The front
and the back.
And of course, the contents were meant only for the eyes of the special one. So, no pictures!
Happy birthday once again my sweetheart. lovelove! <3
-------------------------------------------------------------------
I know this is so random but i just have to post it up.
Mr mushroom head over at my place that night while we had a session of mahjong.
HAHAHAHAHA.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 7:00:00 pm
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Sunday, October 1
> Today.
Today, ive seen the light, ive heard the truth, i know what to do.
Today, i made up my mind, i'v thought it twice, im sure of what to do.
Today, i got hurt by a guy, and i hurt another guy. It wasnt something i wish to do.
And today, is the day ive been longing for. The day every one regains their freedom.
Today, ive seen the light, ive heard the truth, i know what to do.
Today, i made up my mind, i'v thought it twice, im sure of what to do.
Today, i got hurt by a guy, and i hurt another guy. It wasnt something i wish to do.
And today, is the day ive been longing for. The day every one regains their freedom.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 5:40:00 pm
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